Confession Time: I’ve been struggling with my sleep lately. Waking up at all hours of the night and questioning everything about myself. I recorded myself talking about how frustrating it’s been to not sleep exactly a month ago and it’s a needed reminder to take action. I’ve been feeling a lot of shame around the lack of sleep I’m getting.
The last time I had this intense a bout of insomnia, I was at the height of my depression, living in Philly wondering what things would look like in the future. Being up right now, gives me flashes of the times I would cry because I was averaging an hour of sleep a night. When I am overwhelmed, my body takes over. It forces me to pay attention to it and does things like wake me up consistently at 3 am.
I’ve tried to stay away from electronics before bed and when I wake up in the middle of the night, drink tea, meditate, read, write, record myself to talk out what I’m feeling. While those things help, right now, more than anything I’m realizing that I feel a pull to voice my needs and take care of myself.
I’ve been writing for years about my desire to take care of myself and have been making moves that support that like becoming a yoga teacher, meditating daily and journaling. Now I’m jumping into another aspect that I’m hoping to share more with others, Health Coaching. Check out my new Instagram page @sldwellness, I will be sharing more on my page and here about meditation, self care and yoga. Stay tuned!