As I’ve been doing a lot of internal work and jumping into my health coaching practice, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting on my past and realizing how far I’ve come. It isn’t usually until you get out of dark moments, that you realize how much progress you’ve made.
I also had so much shame around My Lowest Point because I thought I had to have it all figured out. In the world of love and light, it often felt like I was supposed to have the solutions to all of life’s problems immediately, when it’s very clear that it takes time for answers to present themselves.
I also have realized that I’ve been moving through the shadow side of light-work and I’ve gone through some deep shit in a constant search for the sunshine. In a constant search for the light at the end of the tunnel.
I use to think that a job, a company, an interview, a trip, a thing would be the “light at the end of the tunnel” that would help me get to where I wanted to be. I thought it would magically help pull the pieces together, and help me figure out my sense of self.
It took me a long time to realize the strong attachment and identity I had built around working and being a worker.
As I’ve been reading and launching SLD Wellness services (podcast comes out on January 1, 2021!! 💕✨) something that has been apparent is that it’s best to look back at where you were two years ago, and help someone get out of what you were dealing with then.
Here’s the thing friends, two years ago I was going through some dark shit, I was struggling with sleeping, self care, developing a meditation and gratitude routine, I was in a pretty dark and negative space and my self talk was at an all time low.
Two years later, I’m far from perfect, but I’m definitely more aware of my habits, my body is sensitive to things that don’t work for me, getting more sleep, eating better, writing and meditating daily and have so much more love for myself.
Although I didn’t know it at the time, I was about to make big shifts to take care of myself, like becoming a yoga teacher, writing daily gratitude, and committing to taking it one step at a time.
I wanted to reach a light at the end of the tunnel but the light is me. I’m the only one that can pull myself out of that tunnel.
In reality, the only one that can get you to where you want to be is you. The only one that can get me to where I want to be is me. But supporters, cheerleaders, motivators help get you through and those are the people that helped me get through, they’re also who I aspire to be.
Although it means I’ll be hanging out in those dark times to pull inspiration from what helped me become a stronger, wiser person, I truly believe your experiences and what you learn make you who you are. SLD Wellness is built on the bedrock of hard times and rising out of them.
Even now during the pandemic, the @sldwellness Instagram page was created from wanting to have a creative outlet. Just like this blog came from dealing with depression and anxiety and feeling like I needed a space to write and express myself. Beauty and lessons can come from tough moments.
I’m committed to creating the self care routines that I wanted for myself two years ago when I was going through tough moments, when I was reliving dark moments from the past.
If you want to create an individualized plan for yourself with me, set up a discovery call with me 💕
How are you taking care of yourself?