Category: Body Image
Navigating mental health as a Black woman is HARD. I use to feel like I couldn’t be honest about what I was feeling. There’s a meme I’ve seen that I think perfect sums up the lack of support Black women get for mental health – it’s cartoon of a Black woman drowning and in the next frame someone is shouting telling her she’s doing wonderful. As she’s continuing to drown, rather than someone helping to pull her up, they give her a high five instead and she drowns and sinks in the water. I know what it’s like to feel like you’re dying right in front of an audience.
For 29 years, I’ve been told by others that I’m too skinny. And when I’d gain weight, I was told I gained it and needed to lose it. Or I was told that I wouldn’t be able to fit into my clothes. After going home recently, the joke was that I was so small my clothes would be too big to fit me.
In my most overwhelming moments, I believed the crap that others would tell me about myself and I would feel like I was floating out of my body. It felt like it was the only way to deal with things.